Reflecting on Childhood Dreams: Marriage as a Lifelong Wish
Growing up, many of us have childhood dreams or things we always wanted to own or achieve. For the author, marriage stood out as a persistent desire throughout their formative years. This essay explores the journey of how this dream evolved and its impact on their life.
Evolution of Dreams
From a young age, the author's wishlist was constantly changing, inspired by the belongings and activities of their elders and peers. However, the one dream that remained consistent was the aspiration to be married, not just any marriage, but one as exciting and desirable as the ones they saw around them.
Whenever the author would see brides, they were struck by their elegance and appeal. The polite and amiable responses from brides further fueled this desire. As time passed, these impressions unconsciously grew on the author, leading them to believe they could also achieve such beauty and grace when they too would be married.
The author often envisioned themselves in the mirror, imagining how they would look as a bride. Even counting down the years until they could marry seemed like a thrilling prospect. The allure of wearing traditional clothing and applying makeup was a dream realized with their purchase of an N64 and a lava lamp, bringing back nostalgic memories of the 70s.
Exploring Desires and Realities
Though the author initially preferred to be a doctor, the inner dream of marriage remained constant. The idea of being married outweighed the practicality of becoming a doctor, who seemed boring in comparison. This desire took a backseat as the author grew older, and reality set in.
Although the initial fantasies of being married were captivating, the author soon realized that the reality of being a bride was not as perfect as the stories they heard. The image of a bride as always polite and amiable was a facade that inevitably faded away, revealing the complexities of married life.
Materializing Dreams
Despite this realization, the author found solace in material aspirations. Owning an N64 and a lava lamp fulfilled a long-held wish. The N64, a typical charcoal one, and the green and blue lava lamp sat together on a retro table, reminiscent of their aunt's living room. This collection of items, including a Rubik's Cube, a toy VW bus, and various classic gaming consoles, symbolizes the author's ongoing journey to fulfill their childhood dreams.
Conclusion
Marriage, a childhood dream, served as a constant source of inspiration and aspiration. While the dreams of being a bride and eventually marrying someone may have evolved, the pursuit of desires remains an integral part of human nature. By pursuing these dreams, even through material possessions, the author found a way to connect with their younger self and bring a sense of fulfillment to their life journey.